I have had a habit of running from 'disguistingish' emotions. These are the ones that feel ugly; even in the slightist if they make my insides churn - i would rather be somewhere else, than face them. This I am sure has made many experiences inaccessible such as - of this I am sure - movies on real life drama. The key to solving this little mystery has been, for one part: gathering up the strength to face them (i.e. the more palatable of these 'disgusting' emotions) and for the second: the realization that experiencing them (gradually in a safe environment such as by reading books or adventuring to face them in real life when and where they come upon you as opposed to immediately shying away from them...) and also associating meaning or context to them transforms that same experience from a disabling one to an enabling one.