My Thoughts

There are two areas of work that need our attention. The first being our ability to solve cognitive problems such as we meet at our jobs. The second being our emotional connect with everything around that needs to be heightend; it is this 'connect' that makes the blue sky look beautiful or an ancient story make us shiver, which experiences do not owe to our cognitive problem solving skills. Once we start we might as well keep raising our abilities, higher & higher.

The middle class script I grew up with seeded a survival instinct into me like it has into many of us. This comes in handy in struggling our way through difficult times but that drives this instinct deeper. An interesting consequence of my quest has been becoming aware of an alternate script that has taught me of the untapped potential life has to offer when we experience emotions in their vitality through meaning we find in books, meaning embedded in past experiences and by finding meaning in everyday life! And so by reading books and submerging myself in work that’s part of my life presently and by reflecting on the day past one hopes to discover and experience these emotions more with each passing day. So that as one grows stronger and more grounded the older instinct to live a life of survival gradually looses its utility, tunes out and one day leaves us completely.

My journey so far has been about discovering the meta rules of how the self works. The essence of what I have learnt is that the self can change and in fact does change every time it undergoes an experience. Where any experience is significant because of the meaning it carries for us. It means something to us by the fact: it changes our feelings from state ( state a ) to another state ( state b ). Where this movement between states is a process we can call witnessing.    The exercise of witnessing can be powerful and enriching.    In fact if we could communicate what we have witnessed through poetry or through prose, perhaps with the aid of metaphors, we could share these experiences with our family, friends and with the larger community.  Thus to go in retrospect and search for meaning in the experiences we have had can help us grow mature, become stronger and make us more aware.

The tar is a delicate sweet instrument. It cuts right through when you feel it play.

The Other is Immensely Powerful. A consequence of which is inevitably trauma becomes our fate. The unconscious response to trauma i think almost always is to bring back equilibrium by exercising power over the Other. However this is impossible and only brings further humiliation and misery. Consciousness gives us a gift: It makes us aware of this status quo. That: In the face of the All-Mighty there is nothing but surrender to the situation He has us in. In this acceptance is our escape from every situation. Discomfort that surfaces is our brawl with existence.

Our memories are stored in our body as feelings we can reawaken. The function of memory is to give us access to these feelings. People, places and other stimuli can trigger them and we can consciously bring them to life as well. To me a feeling is a pulse of energy that flows through our body as a result of an experience that we have. Sometimes an experience we have is so overwhelming that our body entrenches it deep within. So that in response to a similar stimuli a feeling may reawaken. We may not know why, or where it is coming from and logically it may even appear irrational for the time and place it occurs, but our body Remembers! Fortunately, just like cells in our body store bad experiences they store good experiences as well. Some of these being quite powerful! So that if we take ourselves back to those moments we can reawaken our body and rejuvenate ourselves with that same ENERGY!

The struggle is good for him. Unfortunately, he is not able to find contentment in the process.