My Thoughts

For these twists and turns I have gone through - the beautiful moments and the more beautiful reality checks - I am privileged that I have been given a full twenties to live. There is a divine plan which leads us into the future. This plan is greater than ourselves. And I leave it to Allah to decide for me - my thirties. I realize that instead of trying to crack the System [this world we live in] it's wiser to just be genuine and kind and let this divinely crafted System respond of its own. My resolution for my thirties is to engage these beautiful divine hearts that surround me and just WITNESS how the System responds. These hearts each one of them, nothing is more powerful [of that which is made] in the universe.

Having an ego is not all bad and below I share with you the good side to it. An ego I understand is our identity. So it gives us a scaffolding emerging from the pattern of our habits, thoughts and values. Now this identity might or might not be healthy but it affirms our existence as an individual. While it is important to grow and change by aspiring toward Oneness with the rest of existence it is important to return to this identity. This grounds us and helps in engaging the world using the habits, thoughts and values we have collected. Break a pattern and establish a new pattern but we should be grounded all the time. So yes the ego is not real because it's changing all the time towards Oneness which is real but to not affirm our ego would mean that we let go of the structure it offers to us and that is very disorienting.

All our errant habits are a set of patterns we haven't yet left. With enough time; all such habits will be purely a bore! What will be left is what makes us happy. The things that make us happy are simple things we do for others that are genuinely done; and elicit a genuine and heart felt 'thankyou!' With eternal time EVERYBODY would learn this lesson. The test is who learns it in the limited life given to them in this world! The movie on Wikipedia.

The sun is shining down, its rays settling on these dew drops that collected through the night. this morning's full with that pleasant breeze caressing those red and yellow flower petals, as it passes by over them *This was my morning experience after yoga.

What is the Purpose? O Allah Protect me! Terror surrounds me, from the sides. O Malik, Make this simple for me, O Rabb Sweeten this for me. O most Powerful! make this terror apart from me, You hath created me! You have designed me! You hath built my soul, made it into, one which receives from Noor. O Lord of Creation, O Overwhelmer of that which overwhelms; O King of kings, O Architect, Architect Of the mightiest architects! Harmonize me into this surrounding. I come from You, so each challenge I faceth hath a solution within, so no challenge shall persist; each answer shall come to me, as words You place in me. Take this terror, O Lord! turn it to a beautiful sweetness so I see the world like your beloveds do; just as one ought to. Is the purpose not but to simply witness? ~ See each piece of coal turn from dust into jewel.

"We are spiritual beings in a material body not material beings seeking spirituality" - Anon What matters is how conscious we are of this, of the Rough that we are; which rough is connected to everything and unlike the nafs which is our identity, it doesn't exist as a separateness.

Our mind unfortunately, has the habit and ability to take each situation and glorify it completely; for us. It sensationalizes it so much, we loose clarity completely. One way to reverse this is to expose this; and witness our own chatter, while promising to keep away from glory. I do this by writing it down; a catharsis for my diseased heart. Now leaving the death-bed we share with glory, can we begin to witness this world; it's wonders as they truly are! But glory beguiles me, weakening my power to witness; distracting me chews on my attention. It's a bit like those games where we had to count the number of deers that are hidden in the picture somehow; in a picture that's right before us. When we're distracted it's difficult to pinpoint them. These many myriad wonders of creation put in this world in plain view.